In 2015, I was living my best life.
I had an excellent job that paid well and recently finished paying off more than $20K in student loans. Besides, living at home, I had minimal expenses and was able to purchase a new car. Everything in my world was perfect and stress-free.
However, one fall day that same year as I was heading to a meeting, I vividly heard a voice say, “I will satisfy you in a sun-scorched land.” Surprised, I turned to see who said that, yet no one was around. After calling my Dad, I quickly realized that God was speaking to me. And, to my surprise, this phrase came directly from Isaiah 58:11. It goes like this:
The Lord will guide you always;
He will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
And will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
Like a spring whose waters never fail.
Although this was—and is—a beautiful verse, in that particular moment, I wondered what the meaning was. After all, I wasn’t in a position of precarity. Every two weeks, I could count on my paycheque. I lacked for nothing, especially over the next three years, as I experienced significant monetary raises and bonuses. Nevertheless, I still kept this verse in mind.
Eventually, in fall 2019, Isaiah 58:11 came to life before my eyes. I no longer had a job. To make matters worse, I was living on my own for the past year with all the usual costs expected in solo life. Plus, a few months earlier, I was accepted into a graduate program for women’s studies that September. Tuition needed to be paid and books bought. The place of “certainty” that I thought was mine now turned into the uncertainty of financial abyss.
For starters, I didn’t know how I was going to pay my rent. I was worried about losing my car. Anxiety had engulfed me. OSAP was not an option, and although my parents love me, I would never ask them to cover my bills.
But God, true to His word, provided for me. Many times in ways that went above and beyond all that I could ever ask for. Yet, we hear these statements so much that we take that promise for granted and underestimate Him. However, the proof is in the pudding.
Since September 2019, although without a job and in school, my rent has been paid every month. I still have my car. I have food on the table. I didn’t go into debt. I have never lacked any of my needs.
Thus, when God spoke to me back in 2015, He was preparing me for what lied ahead. He knew that there was a desert in front and that it wouldn’t overtake me. Riches, jobs, and even people come and go, but God never fails. He always leads and goes before us. And I say that with confidence.
I don’t know what you are going through. Maybe you are faced with unemployment too, or piling debt, or the breakdown of a relationship. Whatever that wilderness is, God is for you!
I’m sure in someone’s mind, they might be saying, “Racheal, my situation is different, so you cannot understand what I’m dealing with.” Well, your right, I don’t. But that does not change the fact that God does.
No one could have prepared me for 2019. Much more the crazy state of our world today. Still, I believe and have faith that God sees and cares for us. So, remember, you are not forgotten.